Non-incisional blepharoplasty + ptosis correction day 1

I see so many pretty Koreans with natural monolids and I had small double lids so I'm filled with deep regret. Especially when I look in the mirror now and a monster greets me back. People stared at me even though I only went to the hospital, which is a few steps away from the guesthouse. So I just smiled. Really. Yes. Haha. And then I made the fisting action and pretended to punch my eye and the strangers laughed. Well might as well make lemonade since I was given lemons. I after all once again brought this upon myself. For those who know me they know I like to do stupid things which I later regret so badly but are irreversible. I hope this will not turn out to be one of those things cos I'm starting to regret already.

Today a few things happened to me and for that I'm thankful. 

Firstly and most importantly, I was able to open my eyes. My vision is still blurred and I woke up with a lot of yellow conjunctival pus (baksai in singlish) that rendered opening my eyes impossible but at least my left eye is bigger than a slit today. So I happily peeled the plaster from each eye. And this is how I looked like:

And then I'll write the rest later cos my eyes tire easily at this stage.

{Warning to those who are tempted to do it. No matter how natural you make it, people like me will forever be able to sniff out a difference. And not like what they see because they know its FAKE. We cannot play God. Remember that. It's so easy to tell who has done their eyes and who hasn't. Even easier to tell who did their nose and who didn't. So. Pick another treatment, choose another feature. I did this on a whim. Now I'll be the one who will face scathing judgment and barely concealed side glances and uninvited stares of not envy but disgust. }

Non-incisional double eyelid surgery + ptosis correction

Hello everybody, I'm typing from my guesthouse bed with eyes are struggling to open cos they're so swollen. It's day 0 now, meaning it's surgery day. I had thought they started counting from the surgery day but I guess not. So before u plan your trip, do take a longer leave cos you may very well end up bleeding and swelling more than usual. Like me.

I just did my surgery with dr ___ at bano____, and since it's not sponsored at all and in fact the surgery is really expensive, I'm wondering if I should drop names even. I went with a medical tourism agency, and my agent is fantastic. It'll probably be super easy to google them but if you want to know who he is, contact me via the comments below and leave your email address. 

Well, I wasn't really unhappy about my double eyelids in the first place. 

So my dear readers don't jump to doing this unless you really hate your eyes cos it's torturous. You may end up like me cos you never know how your body responds to the surgery. My agent told me the doctor said I bled more than usual which is why my swelling is going to be even worse in the next few days. Currently I'm having such difficulty seeing and even opening my eyes. I just can't. It's painful, ready and super swollen on the left and looks nothing like the other bloggers' pictures. (Do you know why? I believe it's because these people are sponsored and can't tell the truth or bad stuff.) but I'm honest and will show you exactly what I mean:

This was just taken a few seconds ago.

Ground zero, I mean day zero.

I simply can't open my left eye but my right eye is slightly better but also swollen. And to think they all assured me on day zero I would look fine with minimal swelling while on days two three and four the swelling would be horrendous. Looks like in the days ahead I would be temporarily blind.

Ok and my original look was this. 

Doctor said my eyes were pretty. The translator pulled me aside yesterday said he thinks I shouldn't do anything. I also was on the fence but thought that I shouldn't disappoint my agent and perhaps it would be a walk in the park and my eyes would be even more beautiful effortlessly. Oh well what was I thinking. I always end up regretting. I fundamentally believe in natural beauty you know that? Which is why though my nose is bulbous I'm not going to do anything to my nose. Walking into the clinic, the nurses were gorgeous but I could distinctly tell: ah she did her eyes she did her nose, her chin, her zygoma, her jaw, her v line, her forehead. Everything was so freaking obvious that I came to appreciate those particular features that haven't been operated on, and finding them so much prettier. Like the nurse who attended to me on the first day. She had such a pretty natural nose yet she told me she had wanted it done. But the doctor, thankfully, intervened and refused to have it operated. 

Ugh! At least it's symmetrical!! 

A few things that I wasn't happy with:

1) The nurses at banobagi kind of just ditched me after the surgery without illustrating a post-surgical schedule despite having promised me that yesterday. 

2) The nurses who attended to me kept changing. Chl** wasn't here today and another nurse took over.

3) I didn't get to see the doctor much. After the surgery he didn't check on me. During the surgery I don't know if he was there frankly cos I couldn't see. And no, he did not ask me to open and close my eyes after the surgery. Maybe because he knows I cannot open my eyes. I'm hoping he didn't think he botched it. 

4) After coming down all drowsy and sedated and with eyes no bigger than a tiny slit due to my excessive bleeding, a stupid ajuma pushed me aside. She actually pushed me aside! Just so she could see the tv more clearly! So I was baffled and told my agent that she pushed me. And my agent told her off and she started to quarrel with him. Though I speak zero Korean I can tell it was a very heated argument. Really. She has no manners at all. No social graces. I don't want to stereotype but I find many of the people in this country like that. And look. Having known this I still came here. I should have done this in my own country or in Japan. 

5) I'm still waiting for a post-surgical schedule. Their aftercare sucks really. Thankfully I have an agent. Can you imagine if I didn't have one and had questions?

And there are so many questions I have! Like, when can I wash my hair? 

6) after I came out looking like that, only did the nurse tell me that ptosis correction will cause more severe swelling and it may take even longer than a week. That non-incision itself wouldn't cause much swelling. Thanks. I had time and again told them I only have seven days max to recover and go back to work. Thanks. What am I going to do?! 

I was prescribed antibiotics, a hydrogen peroxide solution and an antibiotic cream. I also bought with my agent's help medicine that would supposedly help swelling and bruising. May the higher beings help me. I need to go back to work in a week, and my parents don't know about this. The only person who knows about this is my agent the nurses and the doctors and the new friend I made who stays next door. A beautiful mono-lidded Miss Korea contestant who wants to have her prominent cheekbones shaved. She's untouched but beautiful, and I'm sorry she wants to have her cheekbones shaved. She however doesn't want to touch her beautiful monolids and nose so I applaud her for that. Cheers to natural beauty! 

So worried, had a bad feeling about his and I know I shouldn't have wasted my leave on doing superfluous things. Now I possibly have to leave with shitty eyes for many months and possibly a scar for life. 

Cheers to natural beauty again and I hate myself for having itchy fingers and rocking the boat when it was actually sailing fine. I liked my eyes. They weren't huge but also weren't small and at least they were natural. I am a natural double lidder, though they were hooded and hidden and whatever. Yes oriental eyes but they beat having to go through this.

Girls, learn to love your eyes and work whatever natural beauty you have! 

I like to scrutinize those people who have had certain features altered and now I'll be the one who'll be suffering under the scathing gaze of many an observant person. 

Don't believe them when they say they see girls all wrapped up in bandages walking along Gangnam-ku. I only saw one or two and these girls were scuttling in and out of the guesthouse and clinic with their heads bowed and their eyes averted.

Surgery in Korea, you are not what other bloggers make you out to be. Or maybe it's because I'm just a normal civilian. These celebrity bloggers must be getting better treatment by dint of their status. Oh wells. I'll blog again tomorrow if I can open my eyes. 

I have not started to apply any topical cream and peroxide on my eyes because they told me to wait till tomorrow when I remove these plasters. I wonder if that increases my risk of infection.